Update 2

Hey yall,

"Things are better here this morning. I spent some time with father and he showed me some really sweet things. I was thinking about B.J. while I was alone yesterday. I was thinking about scratching his back and I just started crying. This morning I woke up wanting the same thing. I went to father and he showed me ps-alms. At first I did not want to read psa-lms because it talks so much about triumphing over enemies. But then I thought, what if my enemies are not people but rather unruly emotions and distrust of g-o-d. I asked father to give me help so that my enemies can go down just like David's in psa-lms. I want to use my love for B.J. and my desire to get to august 7 as motivation to run this race well. I want to try to learn the language and push hard, that way when I am come home I will be pleased and blessed by china. I hope time goes by quickly but that I bless china with the time."

I am starting to remember my love for China and its people. All of the smells are so familiar. The sights are too. Everything is about the Olympics. The food is good. Jetlag is bad. We are about to go to our oreintation for the school. We leave for Qufu on thursday, one of our many excursions. I feel weird. Things are normal because I am used to China. But it's different because I have never missed home so much. For so long I wanted to be an overseas 'M' but now I have started to build my home in Texas and with B.J. I love you all but I have never missed someone so much in my life. I swear if I didn't have a g-o-d- who i love even more then Beej, I couldn't do this. The coolest part is that I think my heart for Beej helps me to serve father better. It makes me want to run the race harder and smarter. It make me want to serve better and be better for Him and him. So I will. I know hard days are ahead but that's life.